Has ever happened to you that you actually want to believe there is a God somewhere, but your faith doesn’t let you go any further because you start doubting yourself and everything you know about it? I am writing this post because even though I have spiritual knowledge and I have experienced heaven on earth, still sometimes I fall into the Ego’s trap.
Why your fears and doubts dismiss your faith in God?
You are supposed to trust God, the universe, the one or whatever you like to call it, so then why all this struggle with faith? It might be the mixing feelings I have with religion that saying the word “God” makes me uncertain, but at the same time if I try to call it The Universe or Higher Power I feel I am being unfair.
Doubt can only contribute to one thing: Lack of faith follow by feelings of unworthiness or remorse because you are unfaithful to God. It’s a lot going on in your mind, in one side the wrong thoughts about religion and on the other hand that nowadays almost everybody seems to be an expert on spiritual awareness or new age stuff.
Which makes me wonder if they are teachers that have not yet mastered their own lives, directing to a crowd thirsty for something to believe in.
How do I experience God in my life?
The only way I know its faith, because without faith no one can experience God, I do ache from a lack of it sometimes, mostly when life challenges me to displace on, forgive and forget, or same lessons repeat again and once more.
You are not alone, it happens to everyone the difference between you and others is that you are true to yourself embrace your fears and keep going, you fall on your knees, but get up and learn from your pain.
Having faith of the size of a grain and it would be enough, but what if yours is not even half of the tiny grain? What do we do now? You have to let go, you have to believe, ok then, believe in what? In a God that maybe even does not exist? Because if everything is energy and you and I are creators then why or what do we need God for?
Perhaps the trust you need it’s on yourself and not on somebody or something outside yourself and that’s the mistake, that is where the deficiency of it starts, because you are all messed up with your beliefs, what is correct and what is incorrect? I don’t know, you can’t be a master if you have not mastered your life, so I’ll keep walking this road until maybe one day the Light turns on and awakens me.
For now you only know that without faith no one can experience God, for starters have faith in yourself that might be easier than holding it on outside powers…!!!
Be good, be yourself and keep walking the spiritual path.