Wednesday, August 28, 2013

What Window am I Seeing Through

Seeing through the window
 I wasn’t in a good mood, with a huge headache from lack of sleep, went outside to the front yard and laid down on a bench, kept looking up to the sky, clouds passing through, nice breeze blowing my hair and so the tree branches and leaves a plane crossed the sky, leaving its white wake behind, a dove making its nest on my neighbor’s antenna… I smile and I thought what a beautiful scene, suddenly like waking up from a dream I thought to myself what a wonderful window I am seeing through…!

Headache? I didn’t remember I had it..! With such an amazing view who would have it? You have the choice, it is all yours, I stayed there for 20 more minutes just being one with that moment, no worries about anything or anyone just being.

Then the sky turned gray like a storm was coming, the wind was strong and the clouds looked heavy, the sun hid away, the smell of wet soil again stroked my nose, what a tasty smell I don’t know about you, but many times when a kid I had to taste it because the smell was so nice and my mouth watered...!!

What window Am I seeing through now?

 The view changed in just a blink of an eye you could see how fast nature changes  without asking me!!! Readjusting and refocusing my mind agreed this was also beautiful closing my eyes again kept enjoying being one with it.

My soul has found a place where to  be reborn where to recharge when the battery is almost running out of power… the bench outside in the front yard…!

There is no need to go the Tibet to find peace in your heart is already there where you least expect it, sometimes you spend thousands of dollars looking for a Spiritual Teacher to learn, hoping he or she can give you that awareness that evades you and every time you think is closer… surprise is gone like the movie “gone with the wind” at least it is what it has happened to me in the past.

Now here lying down in this old wooden bench I get to the truth is all about what window am I seeing though.

God Bless you all.

Monday, August 26, 2013

The Freedom of My Soul

Feeling the freedom of walking in the rain
It's raining now and few days ago, it was very hot reaching the upper 40’s in Celsius, now like I said before is raining and weather is better its cool and fresh I went outside, my Ego started complaining about it, I closed my eyes when I opened them I realized how wonderful nature is and the freedom we all look for is right there in this precise moment…!

Not tomorrow, but today, I enjoyed the rain falling over my face, the lightning and thunder, the smell of wet trees and soil, that is freedom, that is what my soul wants what I have been looking for…!!
I had to rewind the movie of my life, then acknowledged beauty is how the world and people look through my eyes through our inner eyes.

I danced laughing in the rain, what a miracle is that, the happiness in my heart was so immense my soul dancing with the everlasting joy of freedom, real freedom.
We want to be free from attachments, from our daily lives, but we also don’t stop complaining instead of being grateful, soil needs water in order to grow trees and any kind of plants, trees need sunlight in order to be strong and healthy and we need all of them: trees, rain and sunlight…!! So then why we complain so much when is hot or when its raining or when trees are on the way?

Because we are very unhappy inside, walking in this world full of anger mixed with resentment, looking for an excuse to throw our trash on others, vitiating the environment, walking like those zombies in every TV channel you skip they have them.

 A marvelous beauty is around you, everywhere you go there is a miracle happening even with the family member who bothers you the most (like my nephewSmile) there is a miracle right there in front of you, it is your choice what you want to see.

Let your soul to be free and you will find peace and happiness, let your soul find freedom and you will see miracles in your life.
Live the moment, rejoice with your own company there is no need to stand in a bar full of strangers in order to have company… you have the best company you can get…. Your own.

Today I know words don’t exist to explain clearly and exactly how it feels in my heart the freedom of my soul.

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Why God Has Forgotten Me

I don’t know about  you, but in my life  I used to ask this question several times a day… Why God has forgotten me? I was lost in the darkness of my Ego.

In the past, like everyone in this material world, I went through every bad experience that happened in my life with the thought of being alone, believing in one God or Supreme Being outside of myself, blaming and feeling guilty at the same time for falling again and again in the same situation.

We feel abandoned, betrayed and forgotten by God when in reality is us walking the path of separateness… the force that move us towards what we want or need is the force inside us waiting to be awaken completely to show itself as a wonderful, powerful yet humble energy that we are.

I myself wasted precious time looking up to the sky asking this question and I never got an answer… then I fell on my knees, crying, tearing my heart apart in desperation, wanting to see a sign in every person or condition I encounter even trying to hear His voice telling me the reason why He has forgotten about me… poor me…!!
Then nothing changed, nothing happened, my world kept going exactly as it was before, suffering and struggle, the struggle of letting go  of my old way of thinking became's a burden to me, a heavy weight over my shoulders, we want to see changes but we don’t want to move a finger to do so.

Many, not to say most people go the grave still asking why? Without knowing that the answer was right in their hearts. God never forgets, because it is right in your heart…!! Never goes or hides away because it is within you.

Instead of asking why God has forgotten me? Ask Why Have I  Forgotten Him? Why have I closed my ears to His voice? Why have I closed my eyes to His beauty? Then you realize who is the one away from the Source.

So now rethink the question and see how the answer comes to you. I know deep inside we all have a tremendous fear to see what can happen, what if its possible? What am I going to find if I look inside me? Embrace your fears and go for it, you will never, ever regret it…!!


Thursday, August 15, 2013

The Weapon of Fear

I went away for one week I needed space and new air to breathe, but in my running I witnessed how fear can become the most powerful weapon people can use against you… if you allow it.

I was in a room full of people looking to sign a contract, to get a job in other words, the people who were supposed to train them or talk about the kind of job they would do, started out saying they could not talk to each other.

They could not say a word about the conditions they were taking the “training”, no use of the restrooms, because that would make them mad and no contract sign, not talking or comments about them not even with your husband or wife because no contract sign.

Most of the people there were older than 40 years, these guys were making fun of them…!! But didn’t complain because if you do “no contract signed” the power of negative thoughts is so immense that lead us to create situations where we are allowing others to treat us like crap.

I could see the faces of both men and women in total disagreement, but then again if these guys saw a frowning   or non happy face the threat was again no job.

Is all about manipulating people through fear…! Those persons in the room needed a job to help their families, but because of their fear of not signing a contract didn’t say anything to stop it. What is definitely true is that the biggest mountain is within you I have no doubt about it.

How far can a person go to give you a job and how much can a person resist the insult? I don’t know It surprised me to see how we can become sheep and docile and allow others to take control over us.

Yes… fear can be a very powerful weapon when a person learns how to use it and this week was my turn to watch… low self esteem, no love for yourself, a mindset for scarcity that don’t let you stand for yourself and say “wait a second I deserve better than this” “I might not have a degree in chemistry but I do have a degree in loving myself”.

The lesson I learned is to follow my dreams, to go for what I want not for what others want to give me, to move forward no matter what even if my fears say you won’t make it.

As Dr. Wayne Dyer says “Do Not Die with the music still inside you”

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

The Struggle of Letting Go

The reality of this statement is that is easily said than done…!! Well, in my spiritual life every day is a lesson I wish I could find a person that can tell me is not having any struggle with letting go.

I think one of the biggest and toughest things in our spiritual quest or even when not in a spiritual path but in our daily life is this…

sad, man , struggleAfter a situation, let’s say a fight or argument with a partner,  parents or our boss we go back again and again replaying the movie and we are home in bed or the next morning, still keeping our head busy with the same thought as you must know the power of negative thoughts its so amazing that can stagnate you in the same place forever.

Like it just happened a few minutes ago…!!! My great spiritual teacher at home is my mother… when I think I have healed everything with her, there she comes again “pushing my buttons”.

When she is criticizing what I do or the way I do it, I keep my mind busy repeating “I release and let go” “I am the Violet Flame that consumes and dissolves everything she says” but guess what? Every so often I find myself falling into the trap of Ego.

Yes and as anyone else I have struggled with my “inner demons” and can’t let go,  it takes me time to do so. I don’t care what others say about it, I think that even Jesus did struggle with it.

What was He doing when He was alone and didn’t want to be bothered I only imagine He had to go away in order for Him to let go of all the things He had to witness and to go through.

He was a man after all… don’t you think? In a higher vibration yes, I agree, but still in a physical body and having to deal with our ancestors of which we are not so different…!!

The great reward of Letting go is the lightness, the freshness and happiness one feels when the burden is trashed… meanwhile, keep working on the breathing, affirmations and daily meditation… unless none of the above work, then bite your tongue before you say something you might regret later or can make you feel guilty and then will be harder to move on.